Time to be free....

Time to be free....
Sometimes you have to dance to the music that's playing...

Monday, August 14, 2017

Daily Struggles

It's been a long time since my last blog, and much has changed in this world.
We now have a president who promotes hatred running our country, which makes people struggle even more on a daily basis. The country seems to be losing it's ever-loving mind. We can't open our Facebook up without reading post after post about the growing hatred and racism in these times. We can't turn on the TV without seeing newsflashes of the same. Even something as simple as going to the grocery store is tiring, trying to dodge the conversations, newspapers and tabloids that are riddled with every negative news there is.
People are afraid. We are ALL afraid. Afraid of someone hitting that nuclear war button at any time now; afraid of losing our health insurance, that we can barely afford to keep as it is; afraid of losing our jobs, or our social security and medicare/aid. The list goes on.
For people struggling with depression and anxiety, it is becoming too overwhelming. We don't know where to turn, or who to talk to. When you have depression, it becomes overpowering. It overpowers everything that is right with the world.
I have struggled with depression and anxiety all my life. I have been on medication for it, on and off, for half my life, it seems. Currently I am not taking anything. I went off it quite a few months ago, thinking how wonderful it was too be able to think more clearly. But, forgetting the fact that I am also a strong empath, I began to once again also see clearly. Too clearly, as to what was happening in our world on a daily basis. The political unrest, free-flowing racial hatred and just plain nastiness of people is beginning to overwhelm me once again. I will be going back on my medication.
People with depression struggle with this daily. Empathic people struggle with this daily. It's hard. Many of us take medication for it. Many of us don't. Those that don't are the ones that don't make it. I want to make it. Simple as that.
Before you judge people who suffer from any mental illness such as anxiety, depression, ADHD, bipolar, or any of the others, walk in our shoes for awhile. Feel what we feel, see what we see, and hear what we hear. Peace to you.

Wednesday, October 8, 2014

Another summer gone...... a pagan new year about to begin...

October has always been my favorite time of the year.
Warm campfires, blowing leaves in the crisp wind, forming whirlwinds in the air.
Pumpkins, scarecrows, homemade soup simmering, and squirrels running along the fence with black walnut-stuffed cheeks.
Samhain's just around the corner, preparing to welcome the thin veil between ours and the spirit world.
What a wonderful time of the year!

Monday, February 10, 2014

Wow...another year, more new beginnings...

The year 2014 has begun, with many new beginnings.
Tim and I have been together a year and three months now. It may not seem like much to others, but for us to make it through the things we have, it means the world. In this month of February, I have opened a new gift shop in a co-op that has much potential. And I have started a new job training as Management for Dollar Tree stores. But the biggest of all? Tim and I have decided to have a Handfasting Commitment Ceremony on July 12th. We are grateful to be as blessed as we are.
This is the beautiful falls area in the Ontario Pathways Trail where we will have our ceremony.
What a wonderful summer it will be.

Sunday, June 9, 2013

Grateful for Blessings...

Wow, I can't believe it's been a year since I've written anything here. And how things can change! My life has taken a complete turn, both personally and professionally. New and absolutely wonderful relationship, new home, and new job. All more satisfying than I ever imagined. It's true...what you put out comes back to you threefold. If you change your thoughts to include as much positive love and gratitude as possible, your life will begin to reflect the same.

Monday, June 11, 2012

Time marches on... It's been quite awhile since I've written anything. Amidst many ups and downs, many moves and emotional battles, I'm now hoping to be able to get back to my thoughts, writing and art. That is when I am most happy and peaceful. I started a recipe journal for my daughter and granddaughter, filled with recipes I've loved and a few family tidbits and silly drawings. I've also started a manifest journal, with the same such silly artwork. I believe I'm finally making my way back from the period of depression I've been battling for awhile. And I feel I've come ahead with some much needed emotional changes. I think deeper, feel deeper, and hopefully have learned to be more at peace.

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

I've recently had one of those "what the hell did I do" moments.
Sometimes you just have to wonder about the decisions you make. There are times when you think you're making the right decision about something, only to ask yourself later "what the hell did I do?"
A while ago I thought I was making a decision that might be in the best interest of myself and the other person involved. Now, I'm not so sure.
I may have lost something very valuable, someone very important in my life.
And I don't know how to get it back. Or if I ever will.

Tuesday, November 30, 2010


The changes in my life have taken over and I seem to have morphed into someone that is almost foreign to me.
I no longer have to worry about where money is going to materialize for gas in my car, or food on my plate. Yet, in stepping into a world of better financial stability after so long in a life of daily fear, I wonder now of the sacrifice and where it will lead me. Time seems to be less of a commodity and more allusive. Spirituality seems to have been set temporarily aside. Self analysis sets in during the more frequent alone times.
Life and the paths we choose to take happen for a reason that is sometimes unknown to us until later, when we have that "aha" moment of awareness.
Not to rush time, because it runs too fast as it is, but I'd like to have that "aha" moment sooner than later. I'm at a need-to-know stage in my life, where decisions I may make will be better ones than I have made in the past.